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Purpose For The Pain

Mon, 28 Jul 2008 14:37:20 GMT

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Tue, 29 Apr 2008 23:39:52 GMT

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An Over Due Update

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 02:51:43 GMT

So no one really read this anymore
But whatever,
I figured I'd update anyway...
Since my last entry A LOT has happend!
My Sweet 16 went amazing!
I dyed my hair an even lighter blonde!
I got my ear pierced again!
Uhm when I wrote that I was single,
Now I'm not.
I've been going out with a guy for
Three months now.
Lots of ups and downs
But,
I love him...
He's in the Navy...
He leaves in June for boot-camp...
My grades have been good...
I've been sort of a mess but I'm okay...
Maybe I'll write to the nothingness of my
Xanga more often...
xoxoxoxox
Sarah

New Entry

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 03:46:53 GMT

Yeah,
So I Haven't Updated This In
FOR-EV-ER!
I'm Addicted To Facebook
It's Sad Really...
Anyway,
Last Time I Updated I Had A Boyfriend
Now I Don't
We Broke Up In August
He Was Leaving For College
And I Didn't Want To Date Someone That Far Away
(He's At College In Canada)
So,
I'm Single
Happy I Suppose
My 16th Birthday Party Is At The End Of This Month
(The 30th To Be Exact)
I Turn 16 December 2nd
The 30th Of November Was The Closest To My Birthday We Could Have The Party
Things Are All Coming Together For It
I Have An Amazing DJ
(They Do ALL Of The Dances At My School)
And I'm Handing Out Invites Tomorrow
I'm Majorally Excited
OH!
And...
I HAVE BLOND HAIR!
I Dyed It In August
And I LOVE IT!
Pictures At The End Of The Post
Anyway...
Time For My Normal
Quotes && Icons!
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"You know that place between sleep
and awake, the place where you can
still remember dreaming? That's where
I'll always love you, that's where I'll be waiting."
-Peter Pan

That's what life is about. Those moments when you feel entirely carefree, like nothing can touch you. It's those moments that make the hard parts so worth it. It's moments like that that make this heartache bearable. I know it'll pass - my moments will come.

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Pictures Of Me:

Top Left: My Friend Tori And I On Halloween (I'm The One With The Tummy Showing)
Top Right: Taken The Day I Got My Hair Dyed Blond
Bottom Left: Taken After Pulling An All Nighter
Bottom Right: In New York City, In Times Square With The Naked Cowboy
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That's All For Now!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Sarah

Nothingness

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 03:14:18 GMT

Things right now are utterly confusing

I'm in the middle of planning so many parts of my life.

Frankly, it's making me wish my head would explode and I wouldn't have to deal with it.

My brother is going off to college and every other thing I hear is about that.

All I have is my Sweet 16 that I'm planning, and right now I don't have much faith in it.

I really want it to go well, I made the guest list today, but I have no idea about the rest.

All I have is a venue, nothing else.

I have no idea how I can decorate because the place is so 'effing strict about that

I have no idea how it's going to turn out and it's making me scared.

And this party is in NOVEMBER!

I believe that I am going crazy

My boyfriend is leaving for college soon so that means we have to break up...

And I don't want to but I can't date a person whose going to be living in Canada

He's one of the best things that's ever happened to me and now I'm losing it

I have no idea how to deal with it.

I'm only 15 and I have so much I'm worrying about, it's like a mid-teen break down!

I've even been planing out my whole next school year!

I need to figure things out, this was a total vent for me...

I really hope someone reads this....

Moving On,

I realized I left this,
Myspace and Facebook
Own me...
I started YouTubing Too...
Icons?

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Credit For Pictures Goes To:
The_everything_thing

Yay Happy Days

Sat, 31 Mar 2007 13:50:51 GMT

Life Is Really Good Right Now
Steven And I Are
Still
Together
We Have Been For
Three
Almost
Four Months
He's Pretty Much Become
Everything
I Have Left To
Hold On To
Right Now
More Recent News:
Track Has Been Going Pretty Well
Just Still Working On Building Up
Endurance
And Our Exchange Student
Carina Is Here Right Now
She's Feeling Kinda Sick
And It Makes Me Sad
She Is A Very
Nice Person
She Helped Me Pick Out
The Dress I'm Wearing To
Steven's Senior Prom
I Can't Wait
Icons
&&
Quotes

Quotes
When life pulls you down,
that's when you try even harder
to keep yourself up.
& if you're pulled down,
you'll know you can never give up.

I'm not afraid of getting old;
I'm not even afraid of dying.
I'm afraid of living a life without you.

I remember the first day we spent together
like it was just yesterday, and boy,
I've adored you ever since <3

a girl worth kissing is
not easily kissed.

The most memorable people in life will be
the people who loved you when you
weren't very loveable <3

God gave us two eyes, two ears,
two arms, two ~~legs~~, two feet & two hands
but he only gave us one heart.
You want to know why? It's because
he gave the other one to someone else
& it's our job to find it <3
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Leave Me Love
<3

Update

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 23:44:36 GMT

Mmmkay,
Update time,
Yes I finally have time
I've been really busy it kinda sucks
Alot
I was working at my mom's office
Making some money
Then Spring Track
Just started,
My first season trying it
I'm in a lot of
pain
Because of it
It really sucks
But I want to keep in shape
On that note,
If I loose anymore weight,
I'm under weight for my height
My doctor is worried because
I randomly dropped from
140lbs
to
128lbs
I might have lost more by now
I have to go and get blood work
Done to see whats wrong
I'm worried
Because I don't know whats wrong
On a lighter note
Things with my boyfriend are amazing
But on a heavier note,
Why is it that people wait
so long
to show that they care about you?
And they take even longer
To realize their mistakes,
But by the time they do there's no point
Behind it because it's
Too Late?
People are confusing...
Icons?

'Kayy Soooo.....

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 00:14:47 GMT

I Really Need To Get Back Into Writing On This
Exams Are Finally OVER
I Didn't Do Completely Shitty
My Midterm Grades Went Like This:
Concert Choir: C+
Geometry: D+
German: B+
English: B+
Theater: B-
Earth Science: C+
World Studies: B-

Yeah, So It Wasn't So Bad
I Just Wish Geometry Was Higher
Anyway,
Enough For School
Time For The Love Life

Things With Steve Are Pretty Much
Amazing
He's Like All I Could Have Asked For
Thats How Happy I Am Right Now

On Another Note,
I CAN FIT INTO A FUCKING SIZE 5 JEANS!

How Fucking Amazing Is That?
I'm So Happy =)
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Yeah Okay,
So My Icons Had A Theme
Today
So Shoot Me
Looking For A New Layout Still...
Okay, I Have My New Layout
I Love It
Leave Me Some Love
<3
Sarah

I Really Needed To Update

Sun, 21 Jan 2007 15:18:11 GMT

Okay
So I've Kinda Become A
Facebook
Whore And Haven't Really Updated
But, I Will Now

For Starters,
Things Are Kinda
Better Than When I Last Updated
I Have A New Boyfriend
His Name Is Steven Reed
And We've Been Dating For A Month

Secondly,
I Kinda Sorta
Relasped
I Cut For The Firs Time In A While
&&
I Lost Like Twenty Plus Pounds
I Don't Know How Though
Maybe Because I've Been Eating Less
And Working Out A Little More

I Had A Good New Years Though
I Went To A Party
I Got Kinda Buzzed
Ooopies 0-:]

Time For
Pictures
&&
Icons

The First One Is New Years
I Look Fat
The Second One Is Me && Steven

Icons

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Okay, I Think That's Good
I'm Looking For A New Layout Right Now
*Keeps Looking*
Hmmm....
I Can't Find Anything Good Right Now
Oh Well,
Leave Me Some Love
<3
Sarah